Miki's Crafty 2013 look back

After a long idle, I wasn't idle. I have been very busy on facebook. My last rant back 2012 Jun, only to find out I attempted to crochet BUT failed to do so because I didn't know what I was doing. Yes I was struggling, much more than now. I was mentally wasn't in the right place to do what I wanted to do, to achieve what I wanted to achieve. I was not focus. Looking back the 2012 me, I find myself today more confidence, more focus and more determine. I absolutely enjoy what I do now, I am beginning to see where I want to go in 5 years.

After the failed Jun 12 attempt, I stop crochet till Dec where I told myself JUST DO IT! Shhhhh Nike don't sue me for copyright! Since 2012 Dec, I have not stop crochet. I work very hard to get a grip what I was doing, many hours to how to make sense from this stupid string of fiber and hook. I was told, crochet is a SKILL and worst come to worst, FROG IT. Oh yes, there is no loss in crochet, nothing is ruin unless you said so!

There, there was my whole 2013, keep telling myself to hook it hook it HOOK IT!7 I use my last 2013 project picture to end my 2013 look back. It was a great year of discovering new skill, and new me. Thank you 2013. Welcome 2014, more hooks and yarn, more creativity juice producing~

Struggling

I find myself struggling keeping sales up, I don't know... Maybe it has something to do with my negative emotion that I keep failing to control lately. I bet stuff I made are not happy when I feel like crap! I haven't work much lately, my husband keep telling me I shouldn't treat this as a business and should stay as hobby as it's not making profit. I don't know what to do, I am frustrate that he is not backing me up. I am frustrate that I am losing patience with people who placed order but not replying messages. I am frustrate over am I not doing enough or I have over done? I know nobody is going to give me advice in such matter, prob just tell me to quit or move on to different things like my husband suggested. Maybe I should, I don't know! I tried crocheting and get criticize at and I blame myself for quick sharing. My regular customers aren't ordering, what have I done wrong? Is it because I told people that I treat this as a hobby considering my price is way too cheap? Or maybe because my design is no longer attractive? What should I change and where should I go????? T_T Depress and sad all around... I do feel like living in an isolated island lately, sigh... I hate this me. I want to cry, but I've lost the ability to do so...

Random +1

Hello, I figure since I have been living for the past 33 years and done nothing really spanktastic I should start blogging to write my stories for people who wants to know me and for my children to read who is their mum when they grow up. Who knows if the site will survive by then. :)

I find it difficult to control what I want to say at times, terribad habit. Please don't mind my cyberslang as I have been online since I was 17. Uh huh, almost half of my life has been spent ONLINE haha. What I want to say is, I can't be bother to change who I am. My parents think I should be different and I have always not live up to their standard, think they given up trying tho.

>.< I have dishes to do, clothes to hang, baby who just fell asleep on my chest atm and my other daughter's room is like a bomb just exploded! -_- Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I want today to be over so I can actually gain some game time for tomorrow! YES TOMORROW IS DIABLO III RELEASE DAY! Hahhahaha, oh wait gamerz r loser? Get a grip, it's call take your mind off things that bothers you! What bothers me? Being separate with my eldest for the past 9 years is very bothering me! Me think I have been being better since she likes calling me and chit chat with me for random things as well as being able to see her in couple of weeks really helps my mind. Oh oh oh, my crafting which I don't really treat it as business also helps me heaps! There are fair a few ladies would like me to treat it seriously as a business but I don't know if I should or not. I treat it casually as hobby at the same time I want it to become a stable income as my husband don't work back to uni and I am looking after the little ones at home. Then again, that means I will have to jack up the price to pay for expenses such as running a website, shopping cart addon, name cards, stickers, packaging so on and so forth which I don't think I am put enough thoughts and effort into it YET! I enjoy making them as a hobby and want it to be affordable for many SAHM. I went to Diva last night and found out my price is quite under what they would sell in a margin especially when most of the orders are custom orders.

Ah well, at the moment we have enough to feed our children and NOT IN HUGE DEBT! So that's +1 yay!!!

So... writing this makes me feel dumb as who in their right mind would read this?????? @_@

A woman dancing on Karaoke contest...

I thought she was funny, so I have it recorded. Obviously she was enjoying herself.

My first blog...

I married with an Aussie for over 2 years now. Our culture background are very different. Sometimes even conflict with each other's values. Is that a bad thing? I don't know, I know love is compromise.

We have learn our bestest and worst side, and we are still learning to get along. Not that we fight every 2 sec but we do have our ups and downs.

The best part of living in Australia is no need to live my life under radar. No fear of people putting up expectation for me and my family. No fuss on who should I mingle who shouldn't. I can consider myself FREE here in AUS. Though, I am not always happy. I left my elder daughter behind...

Me, my first movie clip.
http://http//www.youtube.com/watch?v=abIHRoR9VFg